It’s easier to speak English

Once upon a time two people fell in love with each other. They had great time together, but some time passed and their feelings have become weaker... they tried and tried to bring everything back...while trying they killed everything, they had made together...love, hate, trust...nothing they loved in each other was in them now...like vacuum...lost each other in their diligences...having sex with several people...trying to find love somewhere else...keeping nothing in their hearts and holding cigarettes in their hands...meeting each other to be sure that one can give nothing to another...
why there is no love, hate and trust in me? I wanna feel myself alive, but i feel myself only with u...nobody gives me love, hate and trust the way i need it.... u give.... why its so hard to plead guilty in our vacuum...i have smth in my mind but my heart is empty...my tears have no sense...just emptiness in every step i take...if the step doesn’t take me closer to u

.............i have bought lighter...i hope it would light my fire if only for this weekend............